My crazy world.

Pull up a chair and get cosy

   I am so glad you stopped by,let me tell you a little about my intentions for my web site.I need a place I can go to put my stories down as I have alot of painful issues going on in my head that I have to deal with and hopefully this site will help me lay some ghost to rest.   I suffer with mental illness that I blame on my past up bringing and find life quite difficult to deal with sometimes,I have so much I need to express and I think this is the perfect place where I can`t hurt or damage anyone`s feeling`s apart from my own.   I have a blog which I want to keep light hearted,for everyday life to do with my children and my puppy Murphy.I am forty seven years of age and I am a mother to five children,also a grand mother,I love my family life more than anything in this world and never tire from my children.I lost my own mother when I was eighteen months old and have struggled bringing up my own as a result of this loss.This is a new start for me as I am again recovering from my second mental breakdown and I think having this web site will help me towards my recovery.To all those that pass this way may God be with you.

    May god be with us,every moment of our lifes.

Dont dwell on your past,it will ruin your future.                                

 Another subject I will write about.

We have all been in love some time in our lives, well I am assuming majority of us have, and for those of you that have not experienced love as yet, then I wish you all the luck in the world in finding true happiness.   For me I fall quite easily, and in doing so I have let my heart rule my head, and three times that I have falling, three times I been heart broken, Love can be so beautiful, yet in the same breath, it can rip your heart out so much, that when your hurting, your affraid to cry, for fear that you will never stop, this is a process that I am going through again, and as I am writing this page, I feel phisically and mentally sick with the stress of this awful break up with the man who was the love of my life.   It dosnt matter how many times we say to our selfs that were ok, I dont know how many calls I have rejected from him because I dont want to hear his voice, because really I just want to have him how he used to be, and that was loving and caring before the days he was bang on drugs.   I wonder after nearly reaching thirteen years with him, does he ever remember when we loved each other so much, he has told me a thousand times that I am his be all and end all, but if that was the case, why did he hit me so hard, and why did he smoke crack behind my back with the local free women, I cant write at the minute, I feel to jumbled up in my head,  ...To be con...

In this life there are always going to be people who enjoy hurting one another no matter what walk of life they come from.   I learnt this from a very young age when abuse became part of my life.   It dosnt matter where you come from or what colour you are,abusers of all kind will stand beside you and you wont even notice them because they have no certain look that says "Hi,am an abuser." If they did have a lable stampes on their face then the world would be a much safer place.  An abuser could be a member of your family,a friend,husband,wife,mother,father,uncle aunt,brother,sister or next door neighbour.   Abuse comes in all shapes,forms and sizez,they live all around us like rats and fleas.   This is why I have chose to tell my stories about the abuse that I have suffered while growing up in the world that I live in today.   If you have suffered abuse of any kind then feel free to leave your pain as this site is just for people like you and I.